I define RETRO.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

I’m in the midst of exams right now.

I’ve never felt so pressured before.. I’m pressing for time… and a lot of other things.

LAW paper was terrible. I had the greatest pressure the day before the exam. I couldn’t focus at all and I felt so unmotivated while doing the paper. I was just. I don’t know. Distracted with my own thoughts I guess.

I have to try to FOCUS for the next 2 papers. Organisational Management is pure shit I tell you. Same goes for Mass Media Research. I hate it man. Damn.

After that, I’ll have to work on the flea market that’s happening on Sunday (26/8/06) at West Coast.

just so retro.Saturday, August 18, 2007

Thursday, July 26, 2007

This is not a poem. It's just my thoughts.

I hope it’s really over. I don’t wish to continue this.

I made that mistake. That one night is a grave mistake.

Now I realize it and I want to discontinue it.

I can’t live a life filled with sins that I am clearly aware of.

I will be my own hope.

So, let’s just stop right here, right now.

Thank you for that few days when you made me feel special again.

just so retro.Thursday, July 26, 2007

Sunday, July 08, 2007

When i woke up today, i just wished that i could delete my memory.

No worries, nothing bad happened. I only jumped down from 40th floor and i was raped after that.

hahahahaha.. Of course not you punk!

Yesterday was a family day for me. Which is something unusual.

Went to town with my cousin (kak norin, in case you're wondering who, she's the flight stewardess) and granny.

Later at night was the cuzzies(kak ima, the hair model and kak lina, the teacher) hangout day. We went to Phunk Bar which suck big time! It totally suck! It reminds me of those times when i was into underage clubbing and stuff.

And we moved on to MOS after that.

I was tipsy. Very tipsy. I talked rubbish.

Yes!! i gottttt a chineeeeessseee boyfrrieeenndddd whoooo caaannn cccoookkk halallll pork! WHee!

just so retro.Sunday, July 08, 2007

Friday, June 29, 2007

I don’t know why but I feel really bored these days. Not that I don’t have things to do. I have a lot of things to do. But just.. plain bored.. doing nothing constructive in life. I don’t know. I feel empty. Not in the head but in the heart. Vacuum.
I’m not sure if this is just a temporary feeling or what.

I realized one thing after the break-up with Wee. That my friends and I have drifted far apart. The one thing that I missed most. I remember those times when we hung out at Esplanade and waste our day away till the wee hours. Well. If only I can turn back time.

Labels: Friends from previous life.

just so retro.Friday, June 29, 2007

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I have a lot of money now! Please rob me!

I’ve nothing interesting to tell you guys anymore. Let me see.

Damn! I seriously have nothing interesting to tell.

Oh 1 interesting thing.

You guys know how much I love to play pranks/lie right! 1 fine day, I totally forgot to tell dearest Joyce that I was kidding her when I told her that my mom committed suicide! And guess what! After so long, she only asked me today. Like.. “eh! Your mom really committed suicide ah?” hahahaha I went like "huhhhh?? You mean i told you that my mom committed suicide?" As usual.. I forgot that i lied.. Yet again..

Just like how I told god-knows-who that my grandma is an Indian. (Was it you Mich?!)

Anyway, the immediate cause of my mom’s death is dengue fever and she also had brain tumor. So yeap. Hehe. And no. She did not commit suicide!
And my grandma is not an Indian.

just so retro.Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Sunday, June 24, 2007

OMFG!! I'm fuming with anger! Fuck!

There's this guy... God knows whatever his name is! He's acting as though he owns me!

He's kicking a fuss just because i'm always busy and i've been refusing to give my hp no. for the past 3 weeks or so.

Here's the convo.

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
nurul asyik turn me down je (Nurul always turn me down) *this was the start of the convo btw, no hi and nothing*

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
then u always ask me at the wrong time?hehe
----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
im having my exam bsk (i'm having my exams tmrw) *and of course i was just kidding*
----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
thats why a lil bz

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
oh niari if chat or meet me u will fail ar esok like tat? (Chatting or meeting up with me today will make you fail your exams is it?)
norisaac@hotmail.com says:
cool babe

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
huh?

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
nvm ar u
norisaac@hotmail.com says:
4get it ar

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
ckp ah (speak up)
----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
tk ckp mcm maner i nak paham (i won't understand if you don't speak up)

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
takpa ar (it's alright)

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
isk

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
mit me cn?
norisaac@hotmail.com says:
no rite? thx!

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
i didnt say anything. y r u getting all emotional and worked up?

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
did u layan i dgn betul kat msn? did u treat me as a fren? (you've never entertained me properly on msn, do you treat me like a friend?)

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
look. i told ya that each time u talked to me, its a wrg timing.
----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
and i apologise forthat
----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
its up to u lar, its alright even if u dont want us to be friends. It's not as though it's going to be the end of my world.

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
then u dont cum online if u think its always a wrong timing for me
norisaac@hotmail.com says:
its uyg tak mau its u tt can accept me as fren (you're the one who doesn't want it. *i'm clueless as to what is he referring to*)
norisaac@hotmail.com says:
dont push it to me k

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
whatever ok. ive explained myself

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
ur explanation i nak kena dgr wat abt mine? (i have to listen to your explanation and what about mine?)
norisaac@hotmail.com says:
dont be selfish ar

----> nurul.. True to yourself. says:
suker hati lar.. kalau tk suker dah tk yah bobal (I can't be bothered already, if you don't like it, then don't talk)

norisaac@hotmail.com says:
im always nice but e way u treat me here dah mcm i ni peminta sedekah gitu (i'm always nice but you treat me like a beggar)
norisaac@hotmail.com says:
begging for fren (as though i'm begging for a friend)

Oh FUCK off loser!

just so retro.Sunday, June 24, 2007

I spoke to him on MSN for a very short while. I braced myself and we spoke.
I think I’ve reached a stage where I can confront the emotions that I’ve been trying to evade all this while.

Those times where I thought he was such an asshole (it’s not that he’s not anymore). I mean. I got over it. I got over him and thanks to my hatred for him and his attitude. I’m ok with just being friends. Just “Hi, how are you?” kind of friend.

I swear that we will NEVER be together EVER again. We can never work things out. I think I’m happy with whatever things I have right now. I’m genuinely happy with my current life.

just so retro.Sunday, June 24, 2007

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

I don’t know what I can talk about down here. Too many things are going on in my life. I don’t know where to start. Yes. I have not been updating my blog. I’m just plain busy and lazy.

10 things on my mind right now.

1) Resolved class issue. Something about PINK EMO COW (according to Gina).
2) About religion
3) EX-bf from hell.
4) Other guys and why do they exist in my life
5) Sentosa
6) Stupid tests next week
7) What am I going to do tomorrow
8) Why is it that my fingers are long
9) Why Joyce’s fingers are very abnormal and disgusting
10) What’s the point of having a blog?

Ok. I’m not interested in elaborating point 1. Point 2 is valid. Ok here goes.

Point 2 (About religion)
I shall say this in simple term. “I’ve switched from MOS to MOSque!” LOL. C’mon, don’t be shy. Just laugh out loud or fall off your chair for all you want. LOL.

Basically, it’s all about how I get all inspired in reading up more about it when I go to library and the spirit just die down when I get home. I don’t know man. I think I’m weird. I want to learn more about it but the ego in me tells me not to. I hate ego.

P.S I need to go for religious classes again. Ms Fahizah told me something about the Muslim’s convert place in geylang. I want to learn more about it. I want to try to convert............

to a proper muslim... LOLOLOLOL
I think it’s a good start. Anyone interested to join me?

Point 3
Wee (aka EX boyfriend from hell) is an interesting subject of discussion. Well. He died not too long ago. (Michie would understand my definition of ‘died’)
Well, he’s a complete ass who truly deserved to be burned in hell. So, I dumped him in the big rubbish chute! Yeap.

Ahhh.. I’m tired of typing.. Shall update the next time. Tata.

just so retro.Tuesday, June 19, 2007